Tomorrow – Staying in the moment is wise counsel, not fearing tomorrow’s troubles is good advice. But, being open to tomorrow is necessary. We must hold on to the fact we have a future, we just don’t have a clear picture of it yet – not that we ever did, but we had plans and dreams.
This week during my early morning time with God I was beginning to get a better idea of what He wanted for my life. I was starting to see His plan and His dreams for me. The words in the devotional book I was reading touched my spirit. “Do not be afraid to enter the cloud descending on your life, for God is in it.”
I can’t count the number of times during this season of grief that God comforted or counselled me through the words in this book. “I lift up my eyes to the hills– where does my help come from? My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth.” (Psalm 121:1-2 NIV) I may be in a cloud of grief, pain and uncertainty, but God is right there with me. I can feel His presence.
Plans and Dreams – Getting back to plans and dreams. About two years in to my state of widowhood I began to realize that I did not have any dreams, nothing in the future to look forward to. That wasn’t because I was so caught up in Dave’s death that I didn’t want to live; no, it was because my dreams were our dreams, they are now history.
I came to the conclusion I needed to have my own visions of tomorrow. I need a new fresh reason to get out of bed in the morning. It is the perfect time to follow my heart, to stick close to God and seek out new experiences. There is joy to be found in this new life I am living. There is excitement to embrace and a New Beginning to explore.
Grace ‘n Grins
Streams in the Desert is the book I refer to above. You can read here.