One windy winter day, I found myself dreaming of spring with all its shades of color. I began planning my annual flower garden in my mind, envisioning numerous species soon to border my backyard. I visualized the beauty and I felt the warmth of a spring day and longed for a season filled with promise.The polar vortex but a memory.
What fun to dream and decide about next spring and the amazing plants to grace my yard. No matter how cold or bitter today may be, the sun will usher in new life soon.
As the 3rd anniversary of my husband’s death nears, I am sitting here writing and staring out the same window that framed his world those final 77 days. I remember thinking about winter and spring and how they parallel life. Dave’s passing from this world to the next during winter, made me wonder what spring would be like.
Every year I find myself waiting for winter to pass and I anticipate how perfect spring will be. This year is no different, except I have a peace I have not had for many months. So much change surrounds us when we lose a spouse that it is overwhelming. Even now, almost three years into this state of widowhood, I am stunned by how much my life has changed. But, by employing prayer I now live with a peace-filled heart.
I am astonished at the immense feelings associated with change. This is not how it was supposed to be. We were meant to walk into the sunset together. We worked our entire life and planned for our senior stroll, hand-in-hand. Alone was never part of the picture, not even close. “For when I am weak, then I am strong.” (2 Corinthians 12:10b)
Do you find you are stronger now, as you move through life as a single? Has the journey taught you to cope, to do things you never dreamed you would do? Or, are you not there yet? It is wise to recognize that where ever we find ourselves today, it is okay. God is working and He is moving in our lives. The next time you pick up your Bible and read a passage that you were lead to read, ask yourself two questions. “What is God saying to me today? What am I going to do about it?
Please share what you are hearing from the LORD. We could all use some eternal encouragement.